My eyes slowly open from a deep, peaceful slumber. I think for a moment but I am unfortunately unable to recall any of my dreams from the night before. Too bad. For when I can they have always been pleasant ones. To my right, atop an antique buffet, there sits a small lamp that shines its dim light. It is on because I developed the anxiety of waking in a dark room unable to see or move while I was still in the hospital. The lamp is now my comfort and it shields me from the darkness. Also on the buffet, I glance to see the time. 5:57 is what it reads in red L.E.D. numbers. I think I remember that the news reported last night that sunrise was 7 something, I’m not sure. I know it is probably cloudy outside, it’s supposed to be cloudy all week. Cloudy means the light from the sun will be greatly subdued when it finally makes its appearance. I cannot see out any window, my bed faces toward a wall. There are no windows on my left or right either, only at my back. I have wondered if they could turn the bed 180 degrees? It would be strange with my footboard on the wall but it would allow me to see outside. Just a thought to talk to my wife about. I’ve often wished I had a hand mirror. My left arm in which I have regained some of its use, should be able to hold it up enough or tilt it to an angle where I would be able to see. Few will likely read these words. I have found that everyone leads a life much like mine that is a hot mess. For a brief moment, I may have garnered some sympathy and support, but life keeps moving forward as it does. My words are written for me mostly anyway. Or perhaps they will be read by a great, great something or other who stumbles across them someday. These words would be written in a small journal were I able to put pen to paper. Perhaps hidden away in a dresser drawer or tucked away beneath the corner of a mattress. They might be seen by my sons or daughter, someday in the not-too-distant future. However you come to read these words I bid you greetings. Don’t be sad for me but let your heart be filled with joy, for I’m on the mend and I have faith in my Lord and Savior. I’m not a great writer, but I hope to give you a sense of my life. I wrote the first 100 posts always trying not to make my writings be too much about my faith. I am ashamed. I had a fear of being off-putting to anyone who wasn’t a believer. This will be my first post where I have shifted my focus to an audience who like me have a strong faith in God. I’m not angry or upset that people without my views on faith may no longer read what I write. They have lives of their own and a need to continue on the road of their journey, and I too need to be true to myself. I am still grateful that our paths crossed, if only for a while, even if we don’t agree. As I alluded to earlier, this life occupies but a moment, and it keeps moving forward. These thoughts and many others run through my mind as I also think of the day ahead. Distracted by my writing I notice that the room is now washed in a gray, ghostly white. The clock reads 7:21.